A 4 year Montessori girl.

Monday , April 7 , 2014

Worried Over the Unsuccessful Interview and a Friend's Breakup.

Today, I went to the nearby Joggers Park, to relax after work..  

Beyond the walking track, there is some play area for kids with swings & slides..
kids were playing.

There were so many things happening,

A Kiddo who was scared to slide.. there was a 2 year Old searching Happiness in Sand.. !!

A little boy who wants his mom to be around him all the time..! He wants to be protective :p

A 4 year Montessori girl swinging too high & fast...! She caught my eye..

Immediately , I went and sat on the swing next to her and started moving to & fro slowly

I asked her "Aren't you scared ? " , She replied "I Love Swinging & I cant Slow down... "
I continued, "Aren't you gona fall down ? " , she said.. " I Don't , I have Nothing other than this String in my hand..!!"

I was mesmerized,  I asked myself..

such a pragmatic reply.. Nothing Other than the swing mattered her..

When You Like the Life.. Why will you Slow down.. ?

When You Have Grip on Life Why Will you Fall Down..??

Apply it your Life.. You will get answers too..

Life is The Swing , You are sitting in it.. !!

Life Begins as Swing Swings..

once Forward, once Backward

And Vision , Insight or Thoughts gives you the Momentum... 

The Momentum varies from person to person , 

More Higher the level of your vision , You Swing  more forward and reach heights.

Eventually, You  will swing  backwards.

That is the phase I was in.

Nobody tells you how your life changes, It Changes and  that is Nature's Rule..

So far had been in heights , some downs are there now.. Pretty obvious..  :)

Your Life Doesn't go off the Swing's Track..!!

 unless you leave the string and create Vibrations..!! You are not put down 

  

And , I'm Not Letting Myself  down. 

Then, I walked back home

hoping for another opportunity :) 

On That Sleepless Night..

 I had A New Book in my hand , A best seller Novel from A Most Popular Author , it was 9'30PM & No one was at home.. no noises , disturbances..! I enjoyed Imbibing the characters & scenes deeper & deeper

after sometime I felt hungry I checked out, it was, 11'30PM...aw!!  I went searched kitchen..! ya found 2 carrots, finished my dinner...! went back to my book..

Sometime around 1'30AM..

I felt strange, I thought this Book is Junk & I'm wasting my sleep over it..  :p

so, obviously I switched off lights & closed off my eyes thinking let me sleep but, I couldn't sleep
I went back to Nov 2013, asked myself , how my life was ?

All I could see was, My Mom admitted in hospital , My lost phone , A Mail Said " Dec 31st will be your last date, we will plan a send off lunch for you" , My Birthday , My Parents 25th Anniversary, Tightened clothes, Bad Score in CAT, A new phone, Yoga classes, Changing Diet, Rejection from Nokia, Samsung , Leaving Coffee , Loosing 6 kilos of weight, practicing Pranayama, Getting 3 allocation extended mails, Taking Mom for shopping, Getting into Nokia , Resigning at TechM .....!!

I realised, behind every happy & sad situation there are 4 things conspired.

• Meaning
• Relevance
• Attention
• Memory

Can either Plot you to death or Push you to Life.

When My manager said, so professionally "I'm not extending you, Dec 31st is your last date"

I was petrified, and tears rolled down.. cos, a  day before my mom was admitted in hospital due to severe abdominal pain & I had lost my phone., It was my 3months savings...!!

I was dejected due to the fact of moving out by 31st Dec , Hopeless for the fact that , for the position in office, which dint afford to stay with my mom,  And a loss of Phone.

I wanted to take revenge for the Bitterness in Life.. 

It either Meant, Anu you failed or Anu you are defeated.. ?

Failing would be a very easy task.. cos you dont have to do anything

where as Word "defeat" carried a weightage, that Nerve for struggling & Bearing Pain.

I chose , Let me get defeated & Loose it rather than Failing.. !!
I could feel the heat of being failed , I felt I'm gona loose something Important ?  did u see that, important meant Relevant to your life..! you dont give importance to anything or anyone unless they are relevant / purposeful.

Then I was guessing,estimating, planning & working for it. this actions are possible when a person is Attentive..

I started taking on, Retrospecting the Work left out Making strategies, on how to maximize efficiency..  Retention is an act of Pure Memory.

The same thing is repeated in all above cases,

be it Bad score in CAT... that was for not being attentive.. going wrong in speculating.. Under stress not utilizing memory..

Or take up cracking Nokia Interview... It was for being attentive & thinking Relative, acting meaningfully..  using memory...

Meaning will always your best or worst... when things go right , there is obviously positive meaning, when they go wrong , one must find a positive Meaning :) :)

I keep Winning, until I find Best Meanings in Worst Scenarios..!!

Actually this is not anything new to learn & analyze..

I had done it long ago very long ago..

those times when this world was new to me... I hardly knew anything about it

All Sounds I heard were nice , later got to know they carried a meaning...!!

Eager to know what it meant, I was attentive.., when I got the meaning I recorded it in my Memory.

Next time when ever I found I related...Found out the purpose of saying It..!! Recalling with the same Memory..

That's How I first started Talking.. :) 

Now I can write Also :) :)